Sunday, June 26, 2011

3 a day!

I think, know I don't take time often enough to count my blessings. This past week could have been a hugely upsetting and disappointing one, and in the past, it WOULD have probably totally thrown me for a loop, caused a major fibro flare, and put me to bed for a couple of days. Fortunately, the way that the cards fell, I am able to adjust, make a couple of changes, and move past the "problem". My life is absolutely not where I thought I would be 14 years after I got my Bachelor's degree, but while I'm not in an ideal place, I'm in a good place, and trying to embrace the lessons I'm supposed to learn, so that I don't have to keep repeating them.
A friend was recently told, as part of a recovery process, to keep a journal of positive things in her life. I realized that I could benefit from doing the same, and it will provide me with both motivation to write and a topic on which I can write, especially when I don't think of anything really awesome to write about. I enjoy writing, and I know that my only hope for improving my writing is to actually DO IT!
Amusing to me night before last was that my Li'lcat, who is still unneutered, (until we know that his brother, who is the standard Dwelf in the family isn't shooting blanks) decided that he is a STUD, much to the chagrin of his adopted sister Girlcat, who was spayed almost 14 years ago, when she was a kitten. She was totally NOT thrilled with his amorous intent… and since his body is about 2 inches shorter (from shoulders to hips) than hers, well, he just couldn't get his aim quite right, so she just had this little short cat with her scruff in his mouth pinning her down! It truly was HILARIOUS to see, though I know that she didn't see any humor to it. I've no idea what has caused him to suddenly decide he's a big stud… there's nobody in the house in season, though there are a couple that could be getting ready to come into season, and his sisters CAN'T come into season.
And today I saw the funniest NASCAR commercial EVER!!!

Today's 3 blessings are:
*I have a comfortable, relatively climate-controlled place to live
*I have a lot of people in my world that I truly enjoy and can count on
*my cats, bladder, brain & fibro all let me get 10 hours of sleep uninterrupted last night

And tonight I'm going to make myself go lie down before 10:30, in the hopes of 7 hours tonight!

Thursday, June 9, 2011


Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent. – Eleanor Roosevelt

This is one of the things I struggle with, on a regular basis. I know that it is true, and that I am the one in control of my self-esteem, but sometimes I have an off day, or several off days, and I lose sight of the truth in it. I am a good person, I try to do the right thing, and I know that Karma is a bitch, so I do try to not put out an excessive amount of negativity, but there have been a couple of incidents of late that, at least temporarily, caused me to roll back into that insecure little girl. This time around, I'm kind of attributing it to still getting back into the groove of faire being over and some of the other changes that have happened at work and at home. I don't do change particularly well, and I know this, and there is more change afoot, at least at home, that, quite frankly, I'm not sure where it will land me, though I'm fairly certain that I have at least a few months to make my own changes if I end up having to move.

In the meantime, I am taking each day as it comes, getting faire packed back up again, getting winter clothes packed up, and reclaiming my bedroom and closet from the wreck that it's become in the last few months.

Saturday, June 4, 2011


After 68 days of getting up before 7 a.m., and working all but one of those days, at least part of the day, the ability to sleep in, at least a bit, AND have a nap in the middle of the day has been an absolute blessing! Also a blessing is the fact that I didn't totally crash and burn before this. I had high hopes of getting much accomplished today, but alas, my body & my brain were having no part of it. I did manage to get a load of towels done, and a run to WalMart, but other than that, I've spent most of the day on the couch with a headache and a stopped up head, so nothing tastes particularly good. I'm not sure why I'm suddenly all congested, but I'll just start taking the allergy meds again and hope it clears up quickly. 
Scarby was weird this year, for a variety of reasons, but overall it was a good enough season. I had lots of fun working at Majikah Perfumery, mixing new scents, and trying things I'd never thought to try. I've already been offered a job working for them next year as well, which makes me happy and saves me the cost of a pass next year. It seems to me that attendance was down, except perhaps for Closing Day, and I suspect that much of that is because of the cost of passes increased so much that many people chose not to afford it, and instead came only one or two days all year. 
I'm hoping to make it to church tomorrow morning, but considering how tired I am right this minute, that may not happen, because I HAVE to be rested to go to work Monday morning!